A Day In The Journey

Haunting spirits hold me back,
inflicting spectral pain as I try to step.
Fear creeps through me.
I wonder, "Will this step be a mistake?"
The spirits say, "Yes."
One spirit holds more sway than the others.
This spirit mocks my initiative:
You'll fall;
You'll lose;
You'll give your heart to one who isn't right;
You'll never find someone quite like me;
You'll never be satisfied.
My heart quakes in response.
What if this spectre, all the spectres, speaks truth?
Is my fear a part of who I am?
Or is it only the voices of haunting?
Why can't I turn the voices away?
Instead, I let myself pause
on the verge of each step,
inundated by the haunting spectral pain.