haunting
I am currently baffled by the power of dreams. Why do dreams have so much sway on our hearts? I know this isn't always the case, but from time to time, don't you have a dream that just haunts you? Do you just have a dream that is so vivid, and touches on something so close to your heart, that you just can't shake it? I had a dream like that last night. I've been going through a spate of extremely vivid dreams lately, but they've typically followed my usual pattern of action/adventure dreams with an objective to pursue and difficult obstacles in the way. Not last night. Last night my dream was equally vivid, but oh-so-heartwrenching. It touched a personal struggle, a deep place of sadness/loss, so thoroughly that sitting here at my desk I'm having trouble concentrating. It's just playing in my mind, and I'm fighting a sorrow for something that didn't actually happen, but feels like it could have. Something I almost wish would happen, but would be utterly painful if it did. So today I ache with haunting,and I wonder why something I know is merely a dream, merely a fabrication of my own mind, can have such power over how I feel today. It's just a dream. Yet, it's more than that. And I just can't shake it. It hovers and replays in my mind while I'm trying to care about work. Do you ever have dreams like that? Dreams you just can't let go of, no matter what you do? Why do you think they hold us this way? Why is our own mind such a mystery?